It makes me sad
That I will never be
Close to where
Your expectation lies.

It is far beyond
Where I can reach
And far beyond
Where I will go.

It’s not just the looks
Or the feeling behind
It’s the fact that I know
You will never know Pride.

It truly makes me sad
To see that you are so far
That you might never know
The joys of my humanity.

You may hate my choices
Just as I hate yours
We don’t need to be the same
Though you don’t see it that way.

But perhaps it’s best
That we leave it here
With my soul intact
And your touch unfeared.

I’ll miss you
The way you won’t miss me
I’ll miss who you were
Not who I think you should’ve been.

I’ll mourn the loss
Of our past
When we smiled together
And let the bad things pass.

But we are older now
And I cannot stay
The same as I was
When we both have changed.

I know your thoughts
Though I wish I didn’t
I know how you look at me
Though I wish I were blind.

Maybe this loss
Is not so bad
We can hold onto the memories
Of what we had.

Maybe time apart
Will make you see
All these good new
Parts of me.

They were there all along
Deep down inside
And I can’t pretend anymore
That I’m what you want me to be.

So goodbye
I hope you find yourself
And that you are met with acceptance
That I did not get.

I hope you never know
The pain of leaving
The people you love
Of them leaving you.

You might never read my words
You might never see me again
You might never listen when I speak
Or smile in my direction.

It’s not only that I love you
It’s that you’re filled with hate
That I have to thank my stars
For the loss that fills your place.